One of my biggest irrational fears is of transformation, that is, of somehow becoming something other than what I am, such as a werewolf or one of those gas mask zombies from Doctor Who. This fear keeps me awake at night more often than the fear of being killed. Of course, this fear is irrational because you can be nothing worse than a human being. We are a species cursed with thought, a species that is brought into life to experience a beautiful, temporary innocence before we all inevitably lose our minds at the mercy of our hormones. Did any of us really think constant suicidal ideation was what they meant when they said we would start to change soon? Humans cannot be the dominant species on the planet because they are so intrinsically flawed. One would be better off as a cat. No cat was ever depressed, because cats cannot think. The role of humans may as well only be to provide for the domesticated and blissfully dumb animals. The songs on this album deal with depression, in how it can be used to destroy an individual both internally and externally. They talk about a society in which the actions of those under the influence of drugs have no discernible behavioral differences to those not, a society in which not only depression destroys you, but in which the bigoted also physically destroy you, a society in which there is no viable way to succeed because all of the correct answers are grayed out, a society in which more is expected of an individual than should be, a society in which a girl can contemplate suicide because she didn't make prom queen. This profoundly sick society is ours. It may sound like I'm trying to spread my pearls of wisdom here, but don't worry, I fully recognize that this is quite stupid. I also recognize that this album and its related work only showcase the dark side of humanity. Will the next album perhaps exemplify what good and beauty there is in life? That all depends on if the antidepressants ever start working.
released July 31, 2012